and I didn’t know what to do, as everyone kept complimenting my willpower and tiny frame. I got praised every time I skipped the second glass of wine, or when I ordered eggs on avocado without the toast.
I was also complimented for my 7/7 fitness regime, my 5 am wake up calls, and for training also when injured. I, in fact, didn’t understand people that used injuries as an “excuse” to avoid running.
Only later on, I came across the movement called “Body Positivity”, and I was suddenly immersed in a community of women that were talking about bodies in a different way.
That’s when I learned about Hypothalamic Amenorrhea, I educated myself and changed my life for the best. Initially, I felt a massive resistance towards changing my long-tested behaviors, but after a while, it felt as if I stopped complaining about the dark, and I switched on a light.
The light was initially very soft and feeble, but it kept getting brighter and brighter the more pages, articles, and researches I read.
It wasn’t a comfortable journey.
It took me 12 months to implement changes and notice small improvements; I also had to ask for support, and I had to write and share my story with a few trusted friends.
And then I relapsed, because I’m human, because it’s common, and because things get in the way.
The difference is that I knew better, I was aware of my fucked-up tendencies, and although I could hide away from the rest of the world, I couldn’t hide away from myself.
When my first period came, I was over the moon. I do remember strolling home from work, feeling that life was flowing inside of me. My body kicked into gear and achieved the impossible.
That's when I decided it was time for me to write up a science based and heart felt program that can help women worldwide to recover from HA, reclaim their power, and get their period and THEIR LIFE back.